4/02/2008

Tribute To Gus Aitoro

Note: I began writing this entry on 3/31/08 at 10 a.m.

As most online people know, Ricky Paull Goldin had decided to leave Guiding Light and Gus will perish from injuries of a motorcycle accident. His heart will go to Olivia, who is dying and needs a new heart. Harley will have a tearful goodbye with Gus, and every Gus/Harley fan will be emotional wrecks this entire week. It's a sad time, especially for GusHers, but we will always remember the character of Gus Aitoro and Ricky's excellent portrayal of him. He'll forever be near and dear to our hearts. His relationship with Harley will be treasured and never forgotten.

Gus (and Ricky) will be missed so much, but as we grieve, we'll also look back on his amazing seven-year history. I present to you now Gus Aitoro year by year.....

In April 2001 we were introduced to Gus as an FBI agent. He came to town to investigate the Santos family with the SPD. His and Harley's first words to each other were along the lines of, "Who the hell are you?" He became Harley's boss, and they shared an office. But it was not love at first sight. They hated each other, and they bickered constantly. Gus was an arrogant jerk set on destroying the Santos's, and he belittled Harley many times. It was difficult to like him, especially since he was brought on to be Harley's new love interest. But as the year went on, we saw glimmers of humanity. There was much more to him that meets the eye. He slowly showed Harley that he does have a heart, feelings, and compassion. It was also eventually revealed that his dad, Joe, was killed by a member of the Santos clan and his real name is Nick August. He opened up to Harley about his dad, and he even delivered her second son, Jude. Harley began having feelings for him even though she repeatedly denied it. Gus began pursuing her; he knew there was an intense attraction between them. They shared a few kisses, but Harley was still in denial. Only she knew his soft side, though, while the rest of Springfield hated him completely. As the year ended, Gus contemplated leaving town but stayed because of Harley.

In 2002 we witnessed the glorious first year of GusH being a couple. They slowly built a wonderful, magical relationship despite her family being against them. Gus was no longer with the FBI; he became a SPD detective, working side by side Harley. He struggled admitting his true feelings for her on Valentine's Day, their first date, and other moments. He stumbled with words, he didn't like talking about his past, and he didn't want to rush their relationship. He respected the fact that she wasn't fully ready to be in another committed relationship. Gus had a major breakthrough when he finally let go of his vendetta against the Santos's. He didn't need it anymore since he now had Harley. With that, he showed what a good, funny, romantic, and adorable man he is. And only Harley understood him and saw him for who he truly was for the longest time. Her family thought he was a bad guy and so did her children's fathers. But Gus and Harley fell in love and moved in together. And Gus showed that he's good with children; he could care for Harley's kids just fine. Gus and Harley's love proved to be very strong against obstacles: Marina setting up Gus to look like a pedophile; Phillip gaining full custody of his & Harley's son, Zach; Gus's sister, Eden, coming to town. Gus was torn between Eden and Harley for many months because they didn't get along. Gus & Harley even took a short break so she could get Zach back, but they couldn't stay away from each other. They were in love, and nothing could come between them. The year ended with Gus and Harley winning a huge police case and Harley becoming suspicious of Gus's dad (details of which I can't remember).

In 2003 Harley and Gus stuck by each other through everything. She got her son back after he had a terrible accident. And then she and Gus were on the personal mission of their lives. They investigated Gus's past and realized he had been adopted. Gus how so much to deal with when he discovered his was the son of Alan Spaulding, and his mother was a former Spaulding maid, Lucia. It was a tough adjustment and a real shocker. Gus wanted to get to know his Spaulding family, but he knew the warnings of how deceitful Alan was. Alan also never liked Harley, so Gus tried to get to know the Spauldings without being sucked into their wealthy world. The hardest thing Gus dealt with this year was Harley being shot on the job during a domestic disturbance. She almost died, but she wasn't ready to leave Gus and her children. Then they were no longer partners because Harley quit the force, but their love was as strong as ever since Gus proposed at their home. He had given her his adoptive mom's, Angela's, ring as a "training" ring the year before, but this year was the real thing. They were engaged for over a full year. A big case that put GusH at odds was the Garden of Eden murders (referring to Eden's escort business). Harley wasn't a cop, but she was investigating behind Gus's back. She believed that Eden was the murderer, but Gus had trouble dealing with that. Turns out that Eden was innocent. Then GusH were on to another case but on opposing sides. Harley began a detective agency, and her first client was a woman looking for her missing daughter, The police picked up the case too, and GusH made a bet with each other about who would solve the case first. Gus had always been competitive with Harley on the force; they always bantered at work. During this case they had lots of fun bantering, and the competitiveness proved to be a huge aphrodisiac. They did take the case very seriously, and the daughter was found. Harley technically won the bet, but it was a close call. They called it a tie and celebrated by "getting a room" at the hospital (hehe). The year ended with Gus not knowing about Harley working for Jeffrey O'Neill. He was kept in the dark a couple times over the years, unfortunately, but it was never anything too serious.


In 2004 Gus also began working with Jeffrey. He had to infiltrate the Spauldings by joining Spaulding Enterprises. He and Harley were both working for Jeffrey behind each other's back, but soon they worked together. It was a big case involving drug smuggling. Gus had some undercover assignments while Harley had to worm her way into another man's business, which almost went too far. But nothing disrupted GusH's relationship...yet. Gus had to deal with saying farewell to his sister when she had to go into the Witness Protection Program. We saw a new side to Gus once the drug case was solved; it was a side we never thought we would see. His aunt Alexandra was the person in charge of the drug smuggling, and Alan begged Gus to keep the secret. What was Gus to do? He was forced into protecting his family, and everything went downhill from there because he even kept it from Harley. He was not the kind of man who would keep something like that from his girl. The secret was a big burden for Gus, but it was not revealed until one and a half months later. Frank, Harley's brother, was set up for something, and Gus could have stopped that from happening. It was bad. But in the mean time, GusH finally planned their wedding, which was to be a grand Spaulding affair. Gus had decided to tell Harley the truth right before the ceremony occurred, but he was too late. There was a security tape showing Gus deciding to keep the secret, and Harley viewed it. She was crushed. He tried to explain, but she would not hear it. She exploded at him, and they were over. No wedding. He chose his family over her and betrayed her. Gus was then labeled untrustworthy; how could the trust ever return? Gus was longing for Harley for months; we saw how much of a mess he is without her. What brought them slowly together again was Phillip's "murder". Anyone could have shot him since he became a terrible person (and even demolished Harley's house). Gus found Harley after it was already done. She looked a wreck, and he helped her. That was only the beginning. The year ended with GusH sharing an amazingly long kiss on Christmas and Harley being the prime suspect in Phillip's "murder".

2005 brought us renewed hope for Gus and Harley. Gus proved that he is trustworthy and that he would do anything for Harley. He gave Harley her land back and immediately began planning to have her house rebuilt. We saw how much GusH truly and deeply love each other. They faced one of their toughest battles: Harley going to prison. She was innocent, but so much evidence mounted against her. Gus became her lawyer, and defending Harley was his first trial. He had no doubts about her innocence, and he stayed true to her. He stuck by her through the whole ordeal. Harley wasn't sure of her innocence because she could not remember what happened to her that night; she wasn't nearly as optimistic as Gus. There was a month of bail hearings and whatnot before the actual trial, and together they tried finding Phillip's "killer". No luck, though. The events of the trial didn't help Harley at all, and she prepared for a guilty verdict. Through all of this, Gus was determined to keep their relationship professional, but they were gradually falling in love all over again. He also did just about everything he could to prove her innocence, but she was guilty of 2nd-degree murder and sentenced to prison for 15-20 years (I think). While she was in there, Gus was held captive by Olivia Spencer for a while (for reasons I don't remember). It was rough, and he imagined Harley being there with him once. Harley dreamed about Gus often while in prison, and he did sneak in too see her once (he stole a guard's uniform). Harley was only in prison for about two months; there was a huge prison break with the help of her ex-husband, Mallet. Gus caught up to them, and GusH became lovers of the run. They were on a mission to find Phillip's real "killer", which led them to New York City. While on this fun and dangerous adventure, they became a couple again. They re-connected on many levels, and their love was stronger than ever. Eventually it was revealed that Alan shot Phillip, and Harley won her freedom. GusH became engaged again, and a month later they were married in a simple yet beautiful ceremony outside Company Restaurant in the courtyard. With Harley's sons their family was complete but not their house. The remainder of the year showed GusH mostly happily married, but Harley had trouble getting Mallet out of her head. The year ended with Alan being released from an asylum and Gus worried about him going after Harley. Gus left home to take care of Alan, making sure his wife was safe.

In 2006 we saw more obstacles for Gus and Harley. Gus was gone for a whole month before even viewers knew what happened to him. We knew he went after Alan, but we didn't know where he went or what he intended to do with him. He was out to protect Harley like he has always done. Harley didn't know anything either, just the reason he was gone. She searched for him, and for three months she tried not to give up hope. Poor Gus had been in a car accident with Alan, and they were retrieved by Beth, Alan's current wife. But for some reason she held them captive at a cabin. Both men were seriously injured, and she did what she could to "help" their injuries. Gus fought to leave and get back to Harley, but he couldn't. Meanwhile, all signs pointed to Gus being dead, and Harley had no choice but to grieve for her husband. She and Mallet had been growing closer during this ordeal, and they took comfort in each other for one night (meaning, they slept together). Harley gained a renew hope in Gus being alive, and she eventually found him. Gus shared a long, joyous reunion with his girl before everyone else knew he was back. But damage had been done. While in the cabin, Gus became hooked on painkillers. He had a very powerful addiction and a very sore leg. Harley didn't know of the addiction for a while, but she discovered it on her own. He tried going to rehab, but he left immediately because he couldn't handle not being able to have contact with Harley. All he needed was her. At the cabin with her and sheer willpower he faced 48 hours of detoxification. It seemed he was done with painkillers, and on a whim he and Harley renewed their vows. They had wound up on an island for an investigation and discovered that Phillip was alive and in hiding. Also while there, Gus discovered Harley and Mallet's fling, and he was crushed. He began popping pills again. He didn't let on about him knowing at first, but soon he couldn't keep his cool anymore. He had a huge confrontation with Harley, and they were over again. His addiction was back, and he was a mess again. But he picked himself up and got back in shape. He realized that he could get past Harley's mistake, and he was determined to win her back. Harley returned to town after a small trip to find Gus doing well, completely clean of drugs, and attempting to finish her house. The reunited and built their house together, but it still wasn't 100% complete. They were happy the rest of the year with Zach and Jude. They became partners on the police force again, and an abandoned baby, Sidney, kind of fell into their lap. They took care of her for one night and realized it was the right time to expand their family. They had always thought about having children together. They talked about it, and Gus wanted twins - a boy and a girl. They tried to make a baby...and tried...and tried. But they learned that Gus was sterile from a chemical exposure during his FBI days. They had no chance, but Sidney re-entered their lives. And Gus was so smitten with her; he wanted to have a child of his own more than anything. The year ended with GusH beginning the battle to adopt Sidney.

In 2007 we saw the slow, step-by-step destruction of GusH and a personality change in both of them. But it began with them being united and living happily in their house. They tried to adopt Sidney, but her family from another state wanted her too. The biggest barrier was the fact that Harley gave up her daughter, Daisy/Susan, when she was just 17. She wasn't being a good mother to her now since Daisy had so much freedom at her boarding school. Daisy was forced to move return to Springfield, and GusH saw just how rebellious she was. They had their hands full with her. Harley was dumbfounded while Gus had to fight off Daisy's crush on him. The worst thing Daisy did was lure back Gus's first love, Natalia, into his life. Everything was fine at first. Harley and Natalia got along while Gus remained completely devoted to Harley. But while Daisy was in juvenile detention for a few months, it was discovered that Gus and Natalia have a son together, Rafe, who was also in juvie. That's when Gus and Harley slowly pulled apart. And Dylan, Daisy's father, returning to town didn't help either. Gus tried making things right with Natalia and Rafe while Harley felt drawn to Dylan and raising Daisy with him. GusH had trouble handling their teens together, especially since they began dating. Everything fell apart; the once-happy home came tumbling down. Gus went trough a change when he believed Harley slept with Dylan (she didn't), and he slept with Natalia out of rage. That is an act that Gus would never do; he was never the cheating type. But he made that one mistake and tried making things right with Harley. They really tried to fix everything as their second wedding anniversary passed, but they ultimately chose to end their marriage. Harley pushed him away, and he went straight to Natalia - something that he wouldn't do. Normally, he'd fight for Harley, but he just let her go. He tried making a family with Rafe and Natalia and eventually proposed to Natalia. Meanwhile, Harley became smitten with Cyrus Foley, her niece's boyfriends at the time. That's something out of the blue for her because he wouldn't hurt her niece like that. And both Gus and Harley wouldn't be able to move on from each other so fast, but strangely, they did. Gus's life didn't include Harley much anymore. A terrible annulment occurred between them, but it didn't quite go through. They divorced, and that was that. Gus continued to be there for Zach and Jude, though; he was their father in a sense. The year ended with Gus beginning a close friendship with Olivia, who had a heart condition, and Natalia being suspicious.

In 2008 we saw the end of a wonderful man. Before that, however, Gus began dividing his time between two women. He did marry Natalia, but Olivia wanted him for herself. The two women battled for him, but nothing physical occurred of course because of Olivia's condition. That condition was an advantage for her because she could always pretend she had trouble breathing or was feeling faint, and Gus would be there if she needed him. He was always a protector; I think he was a sucker for damsels in distress. He did get pretty close to Olivia, but he claimed to love Natalia. He wasn't in love with Olivia. Harley was barely a part of his life; they bumped into each other every now and then. He was still around for her sons, of course. But most of his screen time was divided between Natalia, Olivia, and Rafe. Olivia heart gradually turned worse...eventuall to the point where she would die if she didn't get a new heart. It was only a matter of time for her, and Gus and Natalia supported her and her daughters. Olivia wanted to marry Gus as her time started diminishing, but she married Jeffrey, who would look after her daughters. Gus remained a great friend to her till his tragic end... Olivia was whisked to the hospital, and Gus's final scenes alive and uninjured were with Harley first and then Natalia at the new house he bought for them and Rafe. Unfortunately, when he finally received news of Olivia, he borrowed a motorcycle. And that's when tears began for everyone.

As it says at the beginning of this entry, I began it on Monday of this week. It is now Wednesday. Gus had to have surgery to stop bleeding in his head. Harley sensed he might not make it, and GusH shared a tearful goodbye. Natalia got to say goodbye too. When the surgery was over, Dr. Rick Bauer said he was barely hanging on. He didn't hang on much longer, and that was the end of a heroic, funny, offbeat, endearing character. He was all about saving other people and making sacrifices for others. Like Harley said today, "He died the way he lived," because his heart has gone to Olivia.

Gus Aitoro was one in a million (as is Ricky). He had a wonderful seven-year run. We will never forget him. He'll live forever in our thoughts and hearts. We'll always love him and miss him. And we will miss his amazing relationship with one Harley Cooper. They were the light of Guiding Light (in my opinion).

LONG LIVE, GUS!
GUS & HARLEY FOREVER!




3/06/2008

At Last



This is another one featuring their "on the run" love scene. I wanted to do a simple wallpaper using just a few pictures. I chose the three that I love the most. Aren't they sexy and beautiful?

You can see that two pictures have the feathered effect, making them even more lovely. I thought pink would be a good color to match the feel of the scene. "At Last" is the song used while they made love. (Eva Cassidy, remember?) I thought a heart in the center would look great with their names in it. The sky blue matches wonderfully with the pink. And the little pink hearts are space fillers. But lovely space fillers, right?

My take on each picture... The first one of them lying down is sweet. That was near the beginning of the love scene, and he eased himself on top of her nicely. They began kissing immediately and moving their hands over each other. *sigh* Really romantic! The second is a close up of their hands, which I consider to be really sexy. His hand was over hers and interlocking with hers...as you can see. Mmm!! She's also clutching some sand in her hand. One reason it's so sexy is because it makes you wonder what they were doing while their hands were coming together like that. The third picture shows the hottest part of the love scene! OMG! His hand was doing who-knows-what and then moved up to her neck while he was planting kisses on the back of her neck. And she was pressed against him... Wow! Hot!

Such a beautiful wallpaper for a beautiful love scene. *SIGH*

3/05/2008

Heaven


This one is beautiful and very creative.

Gus and Harley had a major love scene on the date specified; it was special because they hadn't been together like that for almost a year. A whole year! And this happened during their "on the run" story. They became much closer during this time. They felt safe with each other and thought it was just the two of them on the run forever. Cue the romance even though there was danger lurking right behind the corner. It was as if for a moment time just stopped, and there were no worries. They took time to just be, thinking that no danger existed.

Also, this took place on a beach set of a soap opera. Even though it was a fake, I'm glad they made love on a beach.

This love scene was wonderful. It was exactly what I hoped it'd be - slow and loving. So, because of that and since I really enjoy GusH love scenes, I made this pretty wallpaper. I thought purple was a good romantic color. There are pictures from almost every moment of the scene and two from their lovely afterglow. I used some different image effects for a couple of the pictures just to spruce up the wallpaper, make it more than just a regular collage. The text are lyrics from the song used in the love scene - Eva Cassidy's version of "At Last", which is so beautiful. It matched the pace of the scene perfectly. The circles of blue ripples are to fill up space, and they represent the ocean even though there wasn't one.

The position of the pictures... I knew I didn't want the corner ones to touch the sides (for some reason I don't remember). And the other six just sort of fell into the places they're in. It's definitely a unique look to this wallpaper.

IMO, this is GusH's most romantic love scene. It didn't have to be hot-n-heavy or fast-paced. They needed to rediscover each other and reconnect on the sexual level. Gus and Harley made the romance and brought pure adoring magic to our eyes.

3/04/2008

On The Run...In New York City


This one showcases Gus & Harley's little adventure in New York City. In 2005 they had a montage of walking around the city searching for a specific building. Sounds like a difficult task, right? They eventually found the Brooklyn Bridge and a hotel, where an important person was staying. In the montage the song "New York" by Smith Point played, and there were a lot of different places within the city where Gus and Harley went. So, I figured I had to do a wallpaper because it was a cool location shoot.

I wanted this wallpaper to be busy because New York City is quite a busy, bustling place. Therefore, it has a number of pictures and text and circles. A lot if going on. I thought some pics of the city would be appropriate, so they're in the four corners. The green text is from the song mentioned earlier. The GusH pics are in chronological order, the first row then the second. And the pink circles & ovals...that was a little experimentation. I thought plain colored circles would look good and fill some space. The faded 'NYC' text is just filler; I get picky about too much space sometimes. I don't know why I chose pink for the main color theme; I think I chose it because their ice cream truck was pink (as you can see in the top right corner).

Speaking of which...what ever happened to that ice cream truck? They left it parked there, found the soap opera set to hide in, and never went back to it. As far as we know, it's still parked there! Too bad they abandoned it. It was a fun place for GusH. They never starved.

Anyway...I like this wallpaper because of how hectic it is. There's plenty more than just GusH going on for once. Brilliant!

First GusH Wallpaper

For many years I had admired those people who created wallpapers; I always wished I could make brilliant ones like theirs. I eventually did, but my first ones were more experimentations than anything else. They were not brilliant in my opinion. I don't even know how long ago I made them.

But I'm still proud of them; they still count. And this is my first Gus & Harley wallpaper:


I used a couple of lovey dovey pictures to experiment with and two different tools in the previous program I used for making wallpapers. This wallpaper looks good; the pictures look good. But it's not perfect.

The sentence in the middle is my motto for Gus & Harley. I had one for another favorite couple, so I came up with one for GusH. It's cute. It's sweet. It's the truth in my eyes, at least in the world of daytime couples.

So, since this was one of my first wallpapers, I kept it pretty simple. There wasn't much to it. It's definitely not my best work, but I had to start somewhere.

11/17/2007

Titanic Survival?

So, I was watching the iconic 1997 movie Titanic recently, and it had me thinking: What would GusH do as the great ship was sinking?

As many know, there is so much going on throughout the sinking of Titanic. People are getting in lifeboats. Some don't make it to the lifeboats. Everyone's panicking and freezing. Some have children, and some are with their significant other. Some couples couldn't bear to separate as the women left on lifeboats. One couple laid on their bed to die together. As we all know most don't survive, and the movie focuses on one couple - Jack and Rose, who stay on the ship until it has completely gone under. Rose was on a lifeboat since it was women & children first, but she couldn't leave without Jack. "You jump, I jump," she tells him. And that's that until death tears them apart.

Seeing all the couples either together or separated, it left me wondering what Gus and Harley would do in this tragic situation, assuming they're still a happily married couple.

Now of course, if they had their children with them, Harley couldn't chose Gus over them. Her children always comes first. Even though Daisy's old enough to leave with Zach and Jude herself, Harley wouldn't allow that. She could never say goodbye to her children. She'd have a very, very sad farewell with Gus that would make all fans cry their eyes out since women & children were first for the boats. Her kids would have a sad goodbye with him also. Gus would have company... Rafe's old enough to not be considered a child. So he's have a very sad farewell with his mom, Natalia.

Now let's suppose the kids weren't on board or ever existed in the first place. GusH are on their own with no one but each other. Would Harley be able to get onto a lifeboat and leave her husband behind? Gus is her protector; he loves her so much. Knowing he can't protector her himself, he'd would want her to be safe on a lifeboat. He would care only about her. But Harley wouldn't be easily persuaded to leave him and safe herself. She'd put up a verbal fight, and she'd proabbably be pried from him if they were near the crew loading women into the boats.

If Harley got onto a boat, I'd imagine it'd play out like the movie. They'd look at each other while the boat was being lowered just as Jack and Rose did in the movie. And like Rose, Harley would not be able to leave him and she'd climb to the ledge of the middle balcony/deck with people helping to pull her in. Gus and Harley would run to each other and vow to remain on that ship until they couldn't anymore. At least that's how I'd like to think it would pan out for GusH.

I do not think they'd give in so easily by lying in their room in each other's arms waiting for water to take their lives. That would be very sweet, but I think GusH would want to live on and make it.

By saying that they'd be like Jack and Rose means that I'm going as far to say that Gus would die and Harley would live. NO I'm SO NOT saying that! I can't even think about that. I don't want to think about that. But Gus would be concerned about only her; he'd find that big door for her to lie on. It'd be great if they found a bigger door for them to lay on together. Maybe the frigid air would get to them, and they'd die together. Or what happened to Rose would happen to them - they would be found alive and in need of heated blankets.

Let's stay positive and say that Gus & Harley would survive the great Titanic disaster.

Wouldn't that be somethin' for them to go through together and live on together? They'd be stronger than ever.

8/23/2007

STUCK In Agony & Love

The Aitoro's marriage has fallen apart, and we fans are at a place we never thought we'd be. For once, exes proved too much of an outside force to handle.

As all GusHers know, Gus & Harley grew further and further apart as they kept spending time with their exes. Then thanks to Alan and Dylan, Gus believed his wife slept with Dylan. And he did the unthinkable. No one, including Harley, ever thought he'd cheat on his wife, who he has been unconditionally devoted to for the past six years. He slept with Natalia, his first love, who he never had closure with. After finding out about it, Harley left town for a while, and nothing further occurred between Gus and Natalia.

What a huge, awful mess!

Harley recently returned, and all hell of emotions broke loose in one wonderful episode...titled simply "Stuck". I'll try not to recap/summarize too much because if you're still reading this entry, you must be a GL viewer and/or a Gus & Harley fan who has already seen the episode.

"Stuck" was all about GusH sorting out their problems and figuring out their marriage. I thought Harley's return meant she was ready to face Gus and that she had time to think about everything and was prepared to be calm while hashing things out. But to my surprise she was still as angry as when she left and she wasn't ready to deal with Gus. Who would have thought that she came home to support her dad? I mean, of course she'd do that, but I wasn't expecting that to be her reason for returning.

Anyway, it took a while for GusH to be alone and start talking, but they both confessed they missed each other. Of course they did even if one of them didn't want to admit it. There was so much hurt in their eyes - Harley was in emotional pain and Gus just wanted to get her alone to talk. It was easy to feel for both of them throughout the whole show.

The coolest part of the show is their conversation in the BATHROOM. You never see bathrooms on soap operas! It was great to actually see one! And of course GusH would be ones in it because they are given the most realistic things/situations since they are the most real & natural couple on daytime. How funny it was...Harley throwing rolls of toilet paper at him. And kudos to the camera guys because there was a real mirror there, so they had to make sure their & the cameras' reflections couldn't be seen.

The bathroom scenes contained the true fighting of the episode. Harley told Gus she never slept with Dylan, and guilt washed over his whole face. He should be an emotional wreck after finding that out. And the fight became about him and Natalia as Harley's face had hurt written all over it. So sad. He tried explaining it as she ousted her disbelief and asked why he went to Natalia instead of coming to her. Eventually they had to leave the bathroom, but their words render very movingly clear.

Gus: But you are my soulmate. You are my heart. You know this.
Harley: I don't know what I am anymore.

.................

Harley: I never thought that you could do this. You have always been so devoted to me and so loyal to me.
Gus: I still am. I still am.
Harley: No, you're not. You would have had faith. You would have had faith and you would have come to me instead of conveniently believing that worst so that you would have an excuse to go to her. Now look where we are.


Gus & Harley made it home, still in discussion, and what a sweet surprise the kids had when they walked inside. They have such wonderful children, don't they? How nice that GusH recieved an anniversary celebration! I loved the banner! GusH have been married two years, and the boys remember that day just as well as they do. It was fun for them all to reminisce, making fans like me do the same. Having the wedding album and telling Daisy & Rafe about that day was sweet. A perfect little family moment. I wish I could see that wedding album, but I kind of have me own on my laptop.

The best line of that moment -
Harley: I never had second thoughts.


After getting the boys to bed, Harley and Gus talked outside and reminisced on their own, which is the best yet saddest part of the entire episode. I cried through it all, but it was good because their wedding was a huge moment of their life together. I'm so glad they had an anniversary celebration and of how much was remembered. So sweet!

Gus: What I remember most about that day was when you walked down the aisle, you said something. You said something to me. I don't think I've ever been happier than the moment I heard that word, "Hi." And I especially remember it because that's the moment that I put this ring on your finger.

Harley: And it was the first time we kissed as husband and wife. I remember that kiss. I had kissed you a million times before, but I remember that kiss because... Because it was sacred. My heart was pounding and I was... I was dizzy and I guess I was so happy and overwhelmed.


That's what's so beautiful - Gus being touched by a simple "hi" and Harley remembering that kiss despite how many kisses they've shared. It was so obvious...their love for each other on that special day and during their reminiscing. At that moment they didn't want to fight anymore and they promised to try to make their marriage work and get back the closeness they've lost. If only it had worked...

In bed was when the agony came through. Day after day they tried making it work, but at night is when you could see that it wasn't working. Such tragedy and disappointment. Harley couldn't let him be close to her without thinking of Natalia. Hence, there was much distance between them in bed, and you saw no kissing or touching. She still isn't over what he did; it still haunted her on the inside as much as she probably tried to push it aside. And throughout those days, Harley was sad because of it while Gus was hurting just as much because he wanted to move on & be close to her but couldn't. As much as they love each other, there's so much agony in both of them. And the kids sensed the tension and knew they were fighting.

Thus, the descision made was to take a break.

That's when the funniest part of the episode came...sending the boys off to another day of camp - the jar of alien soil and Gus pretending to be "Gusenstein". HAHA! Loved it! There's always something funny when those adorable boys are around. But Gus left afterwards, which wasn't as heartbreaking as I thought it'd be. It was a silent goodbye, for they expect their separation to merely be temporary. But we'll see, won't we...

A break brings hope to me and other fans. A break means they are not through with each other; their marriage is not over. A break indicates some time to heal and miss each other and realize how much they really love each other. But it is quite a complicated situation. GusH have their own inner demons going on. Gus is struggling between two women. He loves his wife, and he wants to make things right with her. But there is a pull towards Natalia; I'm sure he has some unresolved feelings for her. Meanwhile, Harley struggles with the pain of her husband cheating on her with his first love, and she needs time to heal that wound. I think they need to handle their individual conflicts before they can truly repair their relationship and reunite.

But we'll see what happen next. And as we wait & watch, we can choose whose side we're on. Personally, I want Gus & Harley's marriage to survive and I'm on Harley's side. Natalia is a huge threat and the enemy; I don't want her anywhere near Gus. I root for Harley and whatever she decides for her future and life with Gus.

Happy 2nd Anniversary, Gus & Harley Aitoro!